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Last night I dug out some old pictures of Murrays Bay New Zealand. The house and view of the sea is something I have always dreamed of, but I threw it all away!
As I look at my photographs of Murrays Bay I can visualise myself swimming in the open sea and breathing in the beautiful surroundings, like I used to all those years ago. Waking up in the beautiful cliff top house and walking through the gardens onto the footpath with the sea breeze whispering "come swim with me."
I have led quite a colourful life and feel very lucky that I got the chance to travel before becoming a Mummy. Yesterday I sat in the garden and talked to my very dear friend who has just got back from holiday. She really wanted me to go with her so the kids could laugh and play in the sun. But the reality is I made a choice when I became a Mummy and that was to put my child first and not to let money get in the way, only problem with that is that we both have to go without certain luxury's such as a holiday in the sun as earning a living from home has been made impossible. It's a blessing that the Welsh beaches resemble the beauty of the New Zealand coastline. If only we lived in walking distance of Caswell Bay, the beach that reminds me so much of Murrays Bay in NZ.
Looking back on my life I could have had it all. The cliff top house behind the one in the picture with balconies surrounding the whole house overlooking Rangitoto Island. I remember sitting in the finished house which my boyfriends parents had built behind theirs and looking out at the beautiful sea. Imagining my art room with the desk by the window and smelling the sea breeze, with the blissful crickets singing in the background. There is only one world to describe that feeling "Heaven, with a capital H."
My boyfriend and I had a lovely flat in Wimbledon. The picture of me below in pale lime green dress is one I picked up from one of the boutique's in Wimbledon Village, the same shop where I purchased my red dress the one I wore to my book launch years later. There I am standing in front of my boyfriends parents amazing house all set to go to my friends New Zealand wedding. The story of how I met my boyfriend and how it ended is quite an interesting one! Like the shark in my previous blog I let him go back into the water to find his real true love. I was merely his best friend, his pal, his best mate. But he respected me as a human being and treated me as equal.
The moral to this story is, yes I miss New Zealand and the dream of a happy life with no stress or worries. But I would never have achieved all I have if my life if it was not so stressful. It has made me work harder and made me realise that I am the only one that can change my life and I can never give up. And to be a success you need to stand on your own two feet and fight and ignore the bullies. I am just going to focus on the happy comments from well wishers. And I need to keep reminding myself of just how much I have achieved on my own. And how I manage to fluke things and make them reality. The biggest thing I have achieved in my life is the fact that I love myself for who I am now, not what people want me to be. So what if I have a fat belly, at least I don't spend my whole day moaning about my weight and wanting to be something I'm not. And it is bigger now after having a child, ha ha.
For all those people struggling in the world, keep dreaming! Don't give up. Ignore the bullies. I am told all the time you have to spend money to earn money. Lets see if I can prove them wrong! I hope to give a ray of light for all the working class people in this world that work so hard through their whole life and having nothing to show for it. Everyone that works deserves a decent, happy, stress free life. This lifestyle should not be just for the rich!
Well it is Sunday, which is meant to be family day, so I must leave my blog and spend the day with my wonderful child. The one that healed my broken heart, the one that made me realise love is the most important thing and how very lucky I am to be a Mummy and to have a child that adores me!
http://www.butterflylullaby.co.uk/ fairy songs, fairy portraits, art and crafts for children, music, fairy music, true stories, poems, children's stories, free fairy network for businesses and stay at home Mum's (Mom's Mummys)
As I look at my photographs of Murrays Bay I can visualise myself swimming in the open sea and breathing in the beautiful surroundings, like I used to all those years ago. Waking up in the beautiful cliff top house and walking through the gardens onto the footpath with the sea breeze whispering "come swim with me."
I have led quite a colourful life and feel very lucky that I got the chance to travel before becoming a Mummy. Yesterday I sat in the garden and talked to my very dear friend who has just got back from holiday. She really wanted me to go with her so the kids could laugh and play in the sun. But the reality is I made a choice when I became a Mummy and that was to put my child first and not to let money get in the way, only problem with that is that we both have to go without certain luxury's such as a holiday in the sun as earning a living from home has been made impossible. It's a blessing that the Welsh beaches resemble the beauty of the New Zealand coastline. If only we lived in walking distance of Caswell Bay, the beach that reminds me so much of Murrays Bay in NZ.
Looking back on my life I could have had it all. The cliff top house behind the one in the picture with balconies surrounding the whole house overlooking Rangitoto Island. I remember sitting in the finished house which my boyfriends parents had built behind theirs and looking out at the beautiful sea. Imagining my art room with the desk by the window and smelling the sea breeze, with the blissful crickets singing in the background. There is only one world to describe that feeling "Heaven, with a capital H."
My boyfriend and I had a lovely flat in Wimbledon. The picture of me below in pale lime green dress is one I picked up from one of the boutique's in Wimbledon Village, the same shop where I purchased my red dress the one I wore to my book launch years later. There I am standing in front of my boyfriends parents amazing house all set to go to my friends New Zealand wedding. The story of how I met my boyfriend and how it ended is quite an interesting one! Like the shark in my previous blog I let him go back into the water to find his real true love. I was merely his best friend, his pal, his best mate. But he respected me as a human being and treated me as equal.
The moral to this story is, yes I miss New Zealand and the dream of a happy life with no stress or worries. But I would never have achieved all I have if my life if it was not so stressful. It has made me work harder and made me realise that I am the only one that can change my life and I can never give up. And to be a success you need to stand on your own two feet and fight and ignore the bullies. I am just going to focus on the happy comments from well wishers. And I need to keep reminding myself of just how much I have achieved on my own. And how I manage to fluke things and make them reality. The biggest thing I have achieved in my life is the fact that I love myself for who I am now, not what people want me to be. So what if I have a fat belly, at least I don't spend my whole day moaning about my weight and wanting to be something I'm not. And it is bigger now after having a child, ha ha.
For all those people struggling in the world, keep dreaming! Don't give up. Ignore the bullies. I am told all the time you have to spend money to earn money. Lets see if I can prove them wrong! I hope to give a ray of light for all the working class people in this world that work so hard through their whole life and having nothing to show for it. Everyone that works deserves a decent, happy, stress free life. This lifestyle should not be just for the rich!
Well it is Sunday, which is meant to be family day, so I must leave my blog and spend the day with my wonderful child. The one that healed my broken heart, the one that made me realise love is the most important thing and how very lucky I am to be a Mummy and to have a child that adores me!
http://www.butterflylullaby.co.uk/ fairy songs, fairy portraits, art and crafts for children, music, fairy music, true stories, poems, children's stories, free fairy network for businesses and stay at home Mum's (Mom's Mummys)
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